December 29, 2011

Music Festivals

I'm still breathing after the C Programming paper yesterday evening. Alhamdulillah. I have 3 more papers to go before the 2 weeks of holiday. Oh yes, saya cuti dua minggu je, tak macam university lain yang cuti sampai sebulan dua ni. Ok, drop this. I'm here to write about something else. Let's begin !

Do you guys know what i have been waiting for when end of the year is approaching ? The excitement of waiting the 3 huge Music Festivals from Korea which are SBS, KBS and MBC Gayo Daejun every end of the year. I'm always looking forward to watch this every end of the year. The performances are always the amazing ones from the amazing artists.

SBS Gayo Daejun

KBS Gayo Daejun

MBC Gayo Daejun

These are the 3 events that i always look and waiting for every end of the year and when the time comes, i'll always watch it with all the hysterical shout and crazy giggle mixed in. As for this year, 2011, i have final exams to deal with and tell me, how can i not feel sad about it ? These are the 3 events that i can call as important events that i never missed to watch every year and this year, i don't know how it will gonna look like. I'm searching hard for live streaming link and dear broadband, you gotta be good okay.

Oh yeah, SBS Gayo Daejun gonna starts tonight and i've just topup my broadband without my mum knowing it. Teehee. Sorry, mummy. On the 30th, it's gonna be KBS day and on the 31st, will be MBC day. 

I'll write about New Year resolutions on the next post, Insyaallah. Till then. 

December 23, 2011

The thought of giving up ....

It is a lie if i say that i have never thought of giving up. I do have that thought, it's been running through my mind now and then. Whenever i have been through some hardships that i can't handle, i tends to cry and have the thought of giving up everything that i have been working for but i'm glad to have Allah and my mummy by my side all the time. 



Whenever i feel like to give up on everything in life, i will think of my family especially my parents who have been there for me every time i need them especially mummy. Whenever the 'give up' word running back and forth through my mind, i'll always think this way "I want to give up just because i have been tested by God for some small hardships and i can't even handle that ?" Mummy and papa have been raised me up for 19 years now without any complaining and they have never thought of giving up on me and why should i think of giving up on myself, then ? Am i right ? Being under pressure in university is normal, based on what my parents said and i have to agree with that. Sometimes, i just can't handle it and ended up being emo or weeping all by myself . 

Mummy once said ;

"You can always cry whenever you want to. You can cry a night, a week or even a year because tears is the only way when your heart can't speaks a word. Tapi you have to remember that Allah is always there with you. Even you cried, He knows what makes you to cry. As long as you always pray to Him, He will always listen and He is the only one who can help you. No one else can."

Honestly people, it is true. Never forget that Allah is actually with you for 24/7. He will always listen and watch. So, He knows everything.  He keeps me going and He give me the strength to live my life. Whenever i'm about to give up, i will always cry and pray to Him ask for strength.


As a human being living in this world, it's normal to be under pressure once in awhile. If not, where's the fun goes at, no ? It's actually makes me to be matured in a way. As you can see, i'm a 19 years old girl, a university student, people see me as a matured girl just because of my physical showed that but to be honest, i'm far from being matured. I act like a kid, most of the time. Sometimes, i play around too much and didn't take things seriously when it needed to. So yeah, i need to change. Change in a better way, of course. I need to think and act like an adult since i'm one now. I can't always simply give up whenever i feel like to. It's such a shame, no ? Let's change to a better person !




p/s: Don't ever think of giving up. We have been through a lot and it's waste just to give up everything we have done before. Keep on pray, pray and pray. Allah is always listening indeed He is now.

December 22, 2011

Kejam nya

" You are what you eat."



YES, I AM WHAT I EAT NOW. 
I think this quote is being cruel to me. If you know what i mean by that. LOL.
Lagi stress, lagi bertambah makan nya. 
Daripada pantang nasi, sekarang nasi pon bantai.
#sosadcandie :'(




p/s: Maksud sebenar quote ni ialah sangat berbeza dengan apa yang saya cuba sampaikan di atas ni ye. Harap maklum.

December 21, 2011

How i wish i can turn back time

Yes, i tau final exams dah nak dekat, indeed terlampau dekat dah and people must be like "Apa hal minah ni siap boleh bersuka ria update blog bagai kan ? PERGI STUDY LA WOII !" Sorry la but i nak jugak update blog kali ni. Nak lepas rindu kat blog yang dah lama terbengkalai ni. Kesiannya awak, wahai cik blog. Lepas ni, Insyaallah sambung balik study. 

So, as you can see from my previous post, which was about the quickly random thoughts, i memang banyak gila konon random thoughts yang cerita sedih tak nak kalah kan. Kononnya hidup i sebagai university student ni sangat menderita, menyedihkan dan melalui penuh onak duri. (Excuse my BM, please) Kalau Puan Fuziah, cikgu Bahasa Melayu i masa sekolah menengah dulu baca ni, agak-agak banyak tatabahasa dibetulkan ni and confirm sedih tengok bekas pelajar buat ayat BM tunggang terbalik. Maaf, Puan Fuziah. Saya cakap bahasa pasar je dalam kehidupan seharian, takde bahasa baku dan bahasa berlenggang lenggok ni. Hish, ni dah melampau sangat lari topic ni. Jauh tersasar daripada topic. -_________- 

Back on the track people. 'How i wish i can turn back time', "Time apa yang kau nak turn back kan ni ?" "Kau ingat kau doraemon boleh balik ke masa dulu ? Please la Didi. Wake up !" I know i'm not a doraemon or some sort of like that but ONLY IF i can turn back time, i'm seriously want to be at my highschool years back. 

I miss those moment :

#1 Bila time Sejarah dengan Sir Magandran, rasa macam seorang ayah datang masuk bilik tidur anak-anak dan menceritakan bedtime stories kepada anak-anak kesayanganya tanpa jemu walaupun dia tau some of his 'anak-anak' can't never go along with history. Sir Magandran with his motivation words to us like every single day. 

#2 Time account bila Puan Tee ajar kat depan sambil menjerit-jerit tak padan dengan badan nya yang kecik, some of the friends will ajuk balik apa yang dia cakap. I mean like they love to imitate her way of talking back then. In the annoying way, of course. 

#3 The moment where, time my group buat english oral test as i'm being the narrator sambil lagu Jai Ho by The Pussycat Doll as the background music and classmates suma nak mula menari. 

#4 I still remember the moment where Jun, my chinese friend menyanyi lagu melayu, jiwang rock kapak punya dengan Najwa dekat bilik bahasa. Kalau dengan Najwa, of course la lagu harus jiwang rock kapak tahap dewa kan. ^^

#5 Paling kelakar bila time spot check, satu kelas menggelabah since ramai classmate yang bawak phone and benda-benda yang tak sepatutnya di bawak macam DVD and so on so forth. Lagi-lagi chinese guys with their cute hairstyle. Ala-ala Korean gitu kan. Kadang-kadang kalau tengok rambut diorang dipotong depan mata, i sendiri yang macam sedih kan, "Ala, kenapa potong rambut dia yang cool tu? Nanti tak comel macam Korean guys dah." Macam over sangat pulak kan but it's true. Luckily, class i memang tempat menternak pengawas-pengawas ni kan, maka our class selalu dapat tau awal bila spot check akan dijalan kan. So cool kan. Untung kan dalam class bersepah-sepah pengawas sampai sakit mata tengok baju semua colour biru je. 

#6 Rindu melepak kat sekolah sampai petang dengan kawan-kawan sebab ada aktiviti. Kadang-kadang, pakai  baju sekolah daripada pagi sampai ke petang. Bayangkan lah haruman dia macam mana kan. Haruman dia semerbak haruman kasturi. 

#7 Kalau bosan bila cikgu ajar, keluar dua orang dua orang jumpa cikgu cakap "Cikgu, kteorang nak pergi toilet." Lepas tu, bukan ke toilet tapi tiba-tiba sampai 1 geng pergi ronda 1 sekolah macam tak pernah tawaf satu sekolah kan. Kira, dalam 5 hari sekolah tu, 5 kali la kteorang tawaf sekolah tu tapi tak kira pulak kalau sehari tu dah sampai 3 4 kali kteorang tawaf sekolah kan. Ala, zaman hingusan, biasa la kan. ^^

#8 Hobi paling digemari, kalau tau subject after rehat tu membosankan, kteorang 1 geng akan melengah-lengahkan masa masuk ke kelas kalau boleh sampai masa subject masa tu habis. Kalau tak habis lagi, kadang-kadang kteorang pergi bilik guru konon-konon nak cari mangsa iaitu guru-guru untuk beramah mesra macam tak pernah jumpa setahun lama nya. Cikgu-cikgu pulak rajin melayan. Lagi kadang-kadang sembang tak ingat dunia.

#9 Paling best bila, i, Najwa and Yong yang merupakan orang kuat Sidang Redaksi majalah sekolah, tempat lepak terbaik ialah confirm confirm la bilik sidang redaksi. Ada air cond pulak kan. Yela, duduk dalam class kipas je. PANAS BABE ! Lagi-lagi kalau time takde elektrik, kalah sauna. -_______-

#10 Time exam lagi seronok, my class sangat sangat mengamalkan sharing is caring and sharing is loving. Bagus betul budak-budak ni kan. Susah nak jumpa tau. Kalau setakat nak jawapan ni, kenyit-kenyit mata je, Straight away bagi. Kteorang siap dah belajar bahasa isyarat terbaik punya. Isyarat ape korang nak ? Tangan, kaki, kepala, rambut, tudung ? Semua ada. Heeee.

#11 Suasana time perhimpunan tiap isnin, 1 geng memang akan sentiasa duduk barisan paling depan walaupun salah seorang datang lambat. Budak-budak class pon dah tau geng kteorang memang akan duduk paling depan. So, kira macam tempat kteorang dah di reserved kan tanpa perlu bayar. Hebat kan ? Bangga jap. 


#12 I MISS HIGHSCHOOL LIFE, THE SURROUNDING AND FRIENDS


Well, kalau nak list kan semua, memang tak kan habis la kan. Sesibuk-sibuk zaman sekolah dulu pon, we still had so much fun and dulu ayat 'STRESS' pon tak pernah wujud dalam kamus hidup ni. Entah entah, kenal pon tidak. Kalau sekarang, kerja nak emo 24 jam je kan. Masalah sungguh. Haih, university life, kenapa la kau ni menyeksa kan sungguh ? Please tolerate la sikit.

December 18, 2011

The unusual weekend

Sunday is here and guess where am i ?

YES ! I AM STILL IN UNITEN ZONE AND THIS IS THE FIRST. OMG, I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF FOR BEING HERE DURING WEEKEND. BIG CLAP FOR YOU, FATEEN DAYANA.

Okay, stop it, Didi. You're already 19 that going to be 20 soon and it's not something cool to be brag off. Well, to be honest, i'm here during weekend for a reason. A pile of undone assignments. That is the main reason why i'm still stuck in this zone.

MULTIMEDIA TECHNOLOGIES PROJECT.

Enjoy the teaser for the project :


I'll post the final product once our group has submit the project to our lecturer to be evaluated. Thanks to the whole team mates especially Ayu and Kutik. The outdoor work was so tiring when we have to deal it under the sun. Not to forget our main cast, Zarith Sofia and Alif. Thank you so much to cooperate with us. We had so much fun with you guys and you guys are so sporting. Made it so easy for everything. Big thanks for everyone that involved. 

December 15, 2011

Random Thoughts #6

I'm going to make a quick post here.

1. As can be seen, my life is too hectic nowadays. Blame it on assignments and final exams that coming to make war with me.

2. It's already mid December. Like seriously ? Time flies that fast, huh. December suppose to be fun but where's the fun go ? God knows where.

3. I've been through a lot along from mid November till now. Stress, cry, and emo. This three blend into me.

4. I want to be stress-free so badly.

5. I want January 2012 to come fast.

6. I eat a lot like no one cares. I'm fat enough. Blame the stress ! *sigh

7. Break out too much on the face. I even don't have the time to do facial. Again, with the stress. Gally keep on slot in an appointment for me like every weekend and i ended up cancelled it. Sorry, Gally. I'm too busy -_______-

8. I NEED A VACATION AND SHOPPING.

9. Degree life is so hectic. Can die.

10. I'm a big fan of 2PM and the biggest fan of 2PM Nichkhun and 2PM Wooyoung. Stress-free whenever i watched them on videos.

11. B Y E

December 7, 2011

Wordless Wednesday 002

I'm not saying that i am in love, i'm just saying that lately, he's been all i can think about.


November 26, 2011

Amazing night that ever happened

It might be a bit late to write about this but hey, it has never been too late for me when it comes to these handsome boys in town. Do you know who am i referring to now ? Yes, it's 2PM, people ! They came to Malaysia for their 2PM HANDS UP ASIA TOUR CONCERT.

I was there at the concert with Ayu. We were all time crazy when we reached at Stadium Negara. Oh yes, the concert took place at Stadium Negara, Kuala Lumpur. Strategic place, though. Honestly, i didn't know how am i suppose to write about this AMAZING night. It's just beyond words. Words can't never explain how it feels like to be there at the concert. Too fun ! I think, i'm just gonna include some pictures that i took that night. It might be a bit shaky or blur. You know i just snapped all the pictures without even looking at my camera because i can never take my eyes away from the stage. I don't want to miss any single thing from that night. So yeah.

YOU CAN TELL THAT I'M REALLY HAD FUN THAT NIGHT EY.

The boys kickstart the night with HOT. It was really AAAAAAHHHHH ! 6 of them standing on the stage, and Jun. K said "Yo, you already know we are on fire. It's me, Jun. K and 2PM" with his swag manner and everyone turned hysterically and screamed their head off. It was a perfect kickstart, i might say. I can't say anything but perfect for these boys. They proceed with Electricity and then, they went straight to Hands Up song. Gosh ! 3 songs in a row and the 3 songs need them to dance very energetic and aggressively ? To add it more, no lipsync. Should i say more ? I just love the boys. 



Basically these are the full set list of the performance :

HOT
Electricity
Hands Up
Tired of Waiting (remix)
Junho x Wooyoung - By My Side (new song written by Junho)
I Can’t
Give It To Me
Dance2Night
Nichkhun x Taecyeon - My Valentine
Chansung Solo Performance (sword demonstration)
VTR: Jeonggam’s story
I’ll Be Back
I Hate You
Back2U
Junsu - ALIVE 
Without U
Only U
I Don’t Know
10 out of 10
Talk
Again and Again
Don’t Stop Can’t Stop
Heartbeat
Thank You
I’m Your Man (Japanese)
Encore: Hands Up Remix + (10 out of 10)



Now, i miss that night. I miss when Junho trying hard to speak malay, "Terima kasih kerana datang ke sini. Saya akan balik lagi" with the Korean accent in it. Just imagine how cute can that sound came from him. I miss Wooyoung who dance to the beatbox music and ended up with the love sign. I miss when Junsu said "What are you guys gonna do on Christmas ? There's no winter here. So, no snow. You guys can come to Korea". The screaming from Hottest right after Junsu said that, the feeling, i miss that. I miss when Wooyoung and Junho performed By Your Side, the dance. Aaaahhh, i miss it. I miss when the maknae, Chansung  made cute faces towards the Hottest and when the camera focused on him. It shows the dorky part of him and how childish he is. I miss when the beast, Taecyeon looked aggressive yet so sweet in the same time. The part when he jumped off from the stage toward the crowd and jumped of from the gate that separate the stage from the crowd. He jumped out from the stage two times. I mean like TWO FREAKING TIMES ! He was so good at fan services. I miss when Junho asked Chansung "Chansung, do u know what's tissue ?" and Chansung replied, " I don't know" and Junho said "Me too. I don't know". Awww ! They never failed to be so cute and handsome in the same time. I miss when Nichkhun took a few cameras from the hottest who at the rockpitt area and snapped his own picture. That's so cute. I was totally freaking jealous. How lucky. I miss when Nichkhun promised to come again next year. I miss the moment when Nichkhun said "No wonder people said Malaysian Hottest are the hottest." Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh, can u imagine how i feel at that time ?!?!?! Speechless. I LOVE YOU, NICHKHUN HORVEJKUL ! I miss Nichkhun's puppy eyes. I miss when the concert was about to end, every 2PM members have gone backstage and left only Chansung on the stage. He teased around with us Hottest and ripped off his tshirt ! He then threw it towards the crowd. I miss the part when they sang Only You and started to give roses to the Hottest. I miss Nichkhun. I miss Wooyoung. I miss Junho. I miss Taecyeon. I miss Chansung. I miss Junsu. I miss the boys. I MISS 2PM.


Too many things that i want to express it here but i don't know how to express it in words. Can you see how many 'miss' that i wrote in here ? I guess you can. Obviously, everything that happened on the night of November 25th, 2011 surely will be missed. I want to cry now. Next time, i'll surely buy rockpitt ticket, insyaallah. Start saving mode is on.

The official goodies that i bought from JYPE booth. Happy girl ! ^^




p/s : Oh yeah, i went to KLIA on the night that 2PM arrived at Malaysia and the post is still in draft. Waiting for the videos from my friend. 

November 16, 2011

Wordless Wednesday 001


November 13, 2011

Necessity not luxury

A warning, please don't call me a gadget freak or something sounds like one.

I'm thinking of changing my Blackberry to an iPhone 4 or iPhone 4S. I know, before this i've been swizzle about changing it to Samsung Galaxy S2 but since now, papa is using S2 makes me want to use other phone. Besides, i've bad experiences with handling this S2 phone. So with THAT experience that i had with S2 before, in a split of second, i've change my mind on changing my Blackberry to iPhone 4, instead. I know it will make my life much more easier.

iPhone 4S

Hold on, people ! Don't start judging yet. I'm not changing my phone like i changed my clothes. It's necessity and it's not like i'm going to change it right after i've done writing here. I'm going to change it right after the Blackberry contract with Celcom end which is next year, Insyaallah. Papa and mummy don't mind, either. Insyaallah, the day of having it will come soon, Di.

The charm


I dedicated this specially for you, my one and only sister, Nur Fadzleen Izyana. You've been asking for it, no ? Actually, you don't have to trouble yourself by sent me a text asking for a good luck charm and all because i'll still do it, though.

I know i may not get to go back and forth to your school during your SPM days eventhough the distance between my university to your school just take me about 10-15 minutes driving but still, i want you to know that i'll always got your back and you have all the support from me. Insyallah, you'll do just great and kill the papers, sister ! You're a Miss Einstein, remember ? You have studied enough and now, leave it all to Allah and don't ever forget to keep on pray.

Best of luck in this coming SPM, baby sister. Kakak loves you, always

November 12, 2011

Unexpected the -not so- awkward conversation

I know, i've been babbling around about those tests, assignments, quiz and all. So, why am i still blogging, no ? I just have to write about last night conversation with mummy that i find it tickled me.

So, our coversation went something like this ;

Me : Mummy, today's date(which was yesterday, 11.11.11) is a nice date kan ? Ramai orang kawin hari ni and i feel so jealous. Excited pon. 

Mum : My friend's daughter is getting married today. Well, actually quite a few of my friends's  daughter and son kawin jugak hari ni. Memang ramai pon kan. Tengok dekat newspaper pon, ramai nak kawin today.

Me : I know right ! The date is just so nice, so that's why la kan. Best nya even your friends punya anak pon nak kawin on this date. Seriously, best gila okay.

Mum : Insyaallah, kalau ada jodoh, u pon will get married. Doa la from now. Next year ada lagi which is 12.12.12. Kalau ada dah, boleh la next year.

Me : Mummy ! By that time, i'm like 20 years old baru kot. Don't you think it's too early for me to get married ? Study pon tak habis lagi.

Mum : Nothing is too early. Kalau dah memang Allah tetap kan jodoh tu, you can't say anything. We, human never know. It's all on Him.

Me : Errr, ok. Now, i feel regret talking about this to you, mummy.


Seriously, my mum left me speechless right after the conversation that i thought i was trying to play around and never thought of getting those serious reaction from mum. Erk.

Breakout

Why do i intend to write on my busy days ? I wonder that too. Well, maybe the -i'm too stress- part that makes me want to write here in order for me to let it all out. Not all. Even i'm writing now or typing, whatever you called it, i don't feel like to make a long post, either.

So, here the things. I've just done with 2 midterm papers for this week and i've another 2 papers waiting for next week. To make it worst, i've 2 assignments that have to be submitted next week and a quiz too. I can't even catch a breath knowing that next week gonna be another hectic week that i've to go through. Not enough with this week, next week too ? Duh. I hate the fact that i can't control or should i say i don't have the right way to control my stressful level and it keep on increasing with all these thing that coming to me. Boo me. Due to that, i often breakout now and it's so horrible. Zits keep popping out everywhere on the face. Kinda ewww-ish  Another thing that lead to stress. I need to see Gally, my skin care advisor. I need to do an appointment with her since it's been awhile after i did a facial routine. Sorry Gally.

As i mentioned earlier, i'm not going to make this long. So, i just hope that i'll survive just great next week since i've survived this week with blessed from Allah. Insyaallah. Oh uh, did i tell you about how 'easy' the Fundamental of Software Engineering paper just now ? I almost lost my breath right after the booklet was turned to the first page. It killed me a bit in the inside. Screw you, FSE !

November 1, 2011

There's no definition of 'Too late to celebrate.'

Where do i begin ? It has been a very hectic and stressful week, i might say eventhough it has not even reach Friday yet. So many assignments piling up and so many catch up to do for mid term coming up. I have dark circles under my eyes and i lack of sleep very much. To sum it all up, exhaustion.

Ok, let's put aside this issue and move to something that fun to tell. Oh, it's about my one lovely lady here, Nur Idayu Idrus. She's officially 19 years old and i'm proud of having her as my friend. One of my annoying yet bestest girlfriend i could ask for. So, i've decided to throw a suprise birthday party for her 19th birthday. To be honest, i've planned it a month before her birthday and it's hard to even plan and do it properly since we're living in the same house. We're like so attached to each other wherever we go that made it so hard for me to even plan it perfectly. Haih, my manja baby girl. *geli, is it ? i know. Oh uh, just to make it more fun, we celebrate her birthday for 2 times. 2 birthday celebration for her which were the fake celebration on her birthday itself and the real celebration was held a week after her birthday date. So much fun, i tell you. Anything for her.

Actually, the fake celebration has been done just for the sake of covering her eyes from the real celebration as planned a week after the date of her birthday. Like i said, anything for her.

So, without further due, let's photo partying !

The restaurant that took place for the real celebration.


The sweetie of the day.



p/s; The pictures does not arrange accordingly since i'm quite lazy to do so. This is just a quarter from the album which bring a sum of 129 pictures.