October 22, 2010

My Guy

I want a guy who will tell me when I'm being stupid. Who won't baby me with his words. A guy who will still give time for his friends. A guy who will tell me "NO". He will watch stupid movies with me, but makes me watch his favourites also. A guy who's willing to drop everything to be with me, but knows when to let it be. A guy who will know he's important to me, but won't mind when I change my plans to help someone out. A guy who is honest, smart and responsible. A guy who would share his problems with me, someone who I could talk with for hours. I want a guy who's charming, who's enjoyable to look at. He doesn't have to be the cutest guy in the world. A guy who will randomly bring me food, because he knows I didn't eat yet and need to eat by that time. A guy who can make jokes about me, a guy that I can laugh with. Someone who won't mind when I embarrass myself. A guy who will buy me something, something I would actually want, not just to please me. Someone who doesn't do everything I ask, but when it comes to something important I can count on him to be there. Someone who I don't feel threatened by. A guy who has other friends that are girls, but I can trust him with them. A guy who I can just sit with. I just want to feel comfortable, and safe.

I don't go for a perfect guy. Afterall, there's no such thing of a 'perfect' guy. Girls really can dream big and the best part is, it's not wrong at all for a girl like me.

October 17, 2010

End of 1st Trimester

2 weeks of Trimester break are here
Automatically, it ends my 1st Trimester.

Goodbye 1st Trimester !
I'm surely going to miss all of the moments where i classified it the sweet ones eventhough i got through lots of thing that need me to be strong in any situations.
Somehow, university really taught me how to face with the real life.
Friends. Studies. Social life. Enviroment. Love life. Time.
This is only the beginning of your life, Fateen Dayana.
Please remind yourself of that. Always.
There are more to come and i pray to always stay strong.

p/s : I've start to miss those people i call friends. :(

October 13, 2010

It makes me smile

It's so cute when 'Just The Way You Are' by Bruno Mars been remixed into Malay version by this one particular fella.
Kudos to Nik Irfan and Caprice.
BTW, dengar lagu ni teringat dekat Si Jejaka A yang annoying dalam masa yang sama TERsayang tu.
Pelik sungguh hati ni dan kadang-kadang rasa annoying dengan diri sendiri pun ada sebab TERada perasaan dekat SI Jejaka A ni.

p/s: Fateen Dayana ni, sekarang nak update semua pasal Si Jejaka A tu je. Bosan kan ?

October 12, 2010

Apabila hati dah suka dan sayang

The tittle might sound or look cliche, ey ? Albeit the fact that i'm acted so happy go lucky with the smile and laugh at the outside, the inside might not seem to be the same as outside look. Much complicated, kan ? Ok. Fateen Dayana memang macam tu. Semua yang berlaku nak dijadikan complicated. So, normal la tu.

Now, back to the main track. 'Apabila hati dah suka dan sayang' , what will happen ? The answer should be CRITICAL . Lagi-lagi dalam kes i, where by, bila hati dah TERsuka dan TERsayang kat si jejaka A ni dalam diam. Ok, please take note the TER yang telah di CAPS LOCK kan kerana itu sangat penting. Bila diCAPS LOCK kan, itu bermaksud i tak perasan bila the feeling pada si jejaka A ni ada dalam hati sendiri. Weird kan? Kenapa i bercerita seolah-olah hati i ni terpisah daripada badan sendiri? Ok. Ignore as it is not that important at all.

I'm not the type of girl yang pandai meluahkan apa yang i rasa pada orang lain lebih-lebih lagi if i baru kenal that person. So, obviously memang i tak ceritakan perasaan sayang i kat si jejaka A ni kat orang lain. Cuma 3 orang sahaja yang tau apa yang berlaku sebab i bermurah hati untuk berkongsi dengan 3 orang pilihan yang berkenaan. Motif? Sebab perasaan tu menyakitkan and it turned out to be more hurt when i get to feel all jealous when the guy start to tell stories about other girls. Ish, Fateen Dayana ni apesal nak obvious sangat ni? Macam mengada betul. Cemburu tak tentu pasal padahal salah sendiri sebab pegi suka dekat si jejaka A yang memang berperangai macam tu.

The worst part among all is when i sanggup back up dia depan my friends which is i sendiri tak sangka i will do that but of course not backing him up while infront of him. I'm not that insane to do those insane work infront of him. To be honest, i love him more each day that comes but i know the outcomes of it. So, i always compute in mind to not expect anything from him or otherwise i'll be much more suffer that i ever imagine. What i can do right now is, let him be happy, i'll be happy for him too and if by seeing him with other girl that he love makes him happy, then i'll be more pleasure to see his smile every single day. Even it hurts, at least i try to be nice.

Haih, susah betul macam ni. Tiap hari, makin sayang. It's ok. Fateen Dayana, tolong lupakan si jejaka A tu boleh? Nampak tak masalah yang datang bila i suka orang tu dalam diam ? Sangat teruk kan? Apa yang orang lain nampak tak elok dekat dia, semua pon i nampak elok. Mungkin orang lain akan cakap " Fateen Dayana ni rabun kot. Kena bagi pakai cermin mata baru nampak jelas" tapi i tak rasa macam tu. I rasa kalau i dibagi kanta pembesar sebesar alam sekali pon memang i tetap nampak suma yang baik je kat dia. Tu orang cakap, kalau dah sayang dan suka memang macam tu. Semua pon jalan elok je. Memang masalah. So, i tak nak kawan-kawan yang i sayang pon menghadapi situasi seperti apa yang i alami sekarang. I will do whatever it takes to avoid this thing happen to my beloved friends. Kalau kawan yang i tak sayang, takpe. I tak kisah apa nak jadi dekat diorang. Ok. I dah mula kejam. Conclusion, i want to live in denial this time by saying that i DON'T LOVE him tapi dalam hati ......

Si Jejaka A, tolong berbahagia dengan hidup anda
Sesungguhnya, saya akan happy melihat anda senyum.
I'll do whatever it takes to just see u happy even by far.

p/s: Setiap kali rasa macam berperang dengan diri sendiri dan itu sangat meletihkan.

October 2, 2010

Wedding dream

Saya nak jugakkkk !
Mummy ! Nak kahwin sekarang boleh ?

Fateen Dayana, tolong jangan bermimpi melampau sangat di siang hari, please.
Awak ni, calon punya batang hidung pon tiada lagi tapi berangan-angan dah sampai langit ke-tujuh dah.
Sila kesiankan saya dan membiarkan saya berangan sendiri kerana sememangnya angan-angan saya ini tidak akan pernah menjejaskan kehidupan anda-anda sekalian.
Terima kasih.